Meds List!

PAST MEDS

St. John's Wort - this made me so screwy. Made me far worse then better.

Zoloft - my first attempt at rx'd medication. Failed miserably. I feel into an agitated depression and I complained multiple times to my then-current pdoc who kept telling me to wait another week. It eventually got to such a point that I couldn't take it anymore. I was, as I described it, an "energetic suicidal". I quit taking Zoloft cold-turkey and also quit seeing that pdoc.

Topamax - this was initially rx'd by my neurologist following a seizure episode. It gave me (at that point) the highest mania ever but at the blink of an eye I dropped into a deep depression. I was taken off of it when my MRI and EEG came back normal.

Pamelor - my second pdoc's first choice med. Within 3 days my mother was on the phone with her explaining that clearly this wasn't working. It did that same thing that Zoloft did (agitated depression) but it seemed so intense. I learned that I could not take anti-depressants.

Trileptal - my first mood stabilizer, it worked fine until....in some weird adverse, completely fucked up, reaction...it gave me seizures. Don't even ask how that managed to happen, I have no idea as it logically doesn't make sense. Mood wise though it help add stability from the mania but the depression raged on.

Keppra & Klonopin - I group these together because that's how I took them (and was rx'd to). I didn't last a week or so before I found myself hallucinating and severely depressed. Immediately we stopped those two.

Tegretol - Okay this did nothing. Absolutly nothing. Not even a twinge hope or relief from it. I didn't stay on it long enough to notice any other effects, after a week of nothing we (pdoc and I) decided we had better move on.

Geodon - I actually liked this med. It helped alot stabilizing my mood, lifted a bit of my depression symptoms and slowed my mind down. Unfortunately it pooped-out on me quickly (within a matter of months).

Abilify - It definately lifted my depression symptoms a ton. However, it made me severely restless and I constantly had to move. This was at 15mg. I dropped to 10mg and was fine until it pooped-out on me, we tried going back up to 15mg but the restlessness came back strong.

CURRENT MEDS (or should I say, meds I'm suppose to be taking)
Lamictal(300mg/day) - I have been on this one for years. It's a fantastic mood stabilizer and also helps control my seizure episodes. I just have to comment the taste of Lamictal is AWFUL however the generic lamotrigine isn't so bad.

Seroquel(300mg/day) - This is also a long-time "favorite". Helps with my psychotic bits and mania when taken with my other meds. It's great for insomnia. I warn you, take it at night as it'll make you really weird. Don't even think about driving your car.

Invega (6mg/day) - This is a newbie for me. It works nicely on my mood and, even though in the same class as Seroquel, it doesn't make me drowsy so I take it in the morning.

Tramadol (100mg/x2 day) - I know this is odd being on this list but hear me out. It is the best thing that has ever happened. It works so well for obsessive-depressive thoughts. I was originally rx'd it after I came into my pdoc complaining all I could think was "I want to die. I want to die. I want to die". I cannot thank my pdoc enough for taking a risk and giving this to me. It's been a huge life saver. If you're thinking about trying to get it rx'd to you, it'll be tough. It's a controlled painkiller. When my pdoc was out and I had to get my rx's refilled the on-call pdoc wouldn't write out a Tramadol rx no matter how much I kicked and screamed.