Break in studying

Yep, taking a short break from studying right now. Have to let my mind take a rest. I'll go back to it, don't worry. I'm a bit nervous about this exam, there's alot of certifications that I have to memorize (I'm in the Intro to Profession class and am studying Dietetics).

So last night I had an episode of sleep paralysis with hallucinations. It started as a nightmare but became "real". I woke up and saw my comfortor having mutiple hands coming and trying to kill me and drag me in. I was absolutly paralyzed, my jaw was locked. It was terrifying. I finally started mumbling the Lord's prayer. I was fighting the lock jaw. Finally it passed. But did I go back to sleep. HELL NO! I woke up and was searching for my cross necklace. I get super religious after these things happen. Luckily a friend was online and talked to me, calmed me down, etc. I finally went back to sleep and slept quite well. But honestly, if you haven't experienced sleep paralysis with hallucinations you won't understand the terror involved in it. It feels like you are going to die, you honestly think that your life is over.

Alright, enough of that. I have to think positive about this exam. That I WILL do well on this, I in fact will do FANTASTIC. My memory will not fail me. I'm watching The Secret DVD right now, so that's helping me think positive thoughts.

In regards to me not eating, I have only had 65 calories today. I'm strong. I can do this, I weighed myself this morning and was 149.8lbs. I'm so glad that I'm under 150lbs. I would be totally freaking out if I was. I was very tempted to eat when I woke up this morning. I was very hungry but I resisted and just ate an apple and some diet cranberry juice to down my meds.

Wish me luck for the rest of the day!